Part 1

This cuts to deep, this feeling of losing you

Like you are hanging at the edge of my fingers willing to let go

This emotion so intense, why does it bruise me, this feeling so strange it consumes me.

The dream still fresh on the shores of my memory

The pain still raw in my heart, the tears still resting on my skin

Why do you mean this much, what is it about you that my soul can’t live without...

I sit here wishing I knew, longing for answers inside this hidden truth

The secrets my lips choose to keep even when my body can’t breathe...

What is the point in hoping

When all hope will fail

What’s the point in wishing when your boat has already sailed

Why can’t I embrace the now forgetting about...one day

Will he still be here,

Will his fingers welcome my tears

Will my name flow from his lips like a sweet song of passion

Will his eyes inside me see

The unborn miracles birthed in his heart...

When he lies awake at night and his eyes forget how to sleep

Does he wish I was there next to him

So he could examine my technique...

My mind races as my body realizes it can’t stop...

Trying to save my heart, preserving my pain

Ripping me open once again

Life so fragile as my body breaks

My heart shakes

My eyes drown in this emotion...

This feeling so unfamiliar, it scares me

So intense it becomes me

Alone I sit and break trying to find an escape

Here you stand with my heart in your hands

Promising to guard it, to hide it, to love it, to make it disappear

This pain, these tears, the nights that had ears

The days that shouted

My pain, my failure, my hurt,

The nights I sat alone in the dark looking for my broken heart...

Slowly I remember why

Why I get weak when you come close

Why my heart broke when you weren’t there

Why I love you

The way your presence draws me in

How your hands long for my skin

Why every breath left me hoping there would be another

How your eyes ignited my soul

Every time my lips touched yours...

I froze as emotion breathed life

As if their existence till that moment was pointless

Nothing but thoughts floating in the wind