POEMS

In this place I feel safe

In this place my feelings don’t show. In this place my smile is real. In this place, surrounded by faces my mind cannot remember, as my heart tries to forget, covered with feelings of sorrow and regret. As I look in your eyes and see your pain, knowing I caused it... I feel the sadness in your touch and I fall apart

End it before you disappoint, run before you can’t...cry before your heart forgets why it’s lost its soul. Like an ocean with no shore, your emotions have bruised you to the core. Your eyes so empty, your words so few as if they are the only substance in you. Tears roll down your face as you cover your wounds, your hurts...your heart. Empty you stand as the sun sets on your face and you become almost invisible, almost hidden, almost nothing. Slowly I watch as the ghost of you fades into the mist, your sorrow embraces you until its arms of disappointment has become you

Walking in a garden

Walking all alone

Walking in a garden with a mind of its own

Walking next to a river

A calm and gentle stream

Walking next to my father The man I want to be

Walking in my garden Walking in my home

You face my demons and I forget my fear

You let me breathe and the haunting souls release me

Taking you in, the darkness leaves me

I feel as light as a feather in the wind

This scares me for a moment but then you pull me close

Gently let your lips capture my skin

I’m safe, I’m free but then you leave and I crumble

In that moment the darkness sees me, craving my wounded soul

In that moment it breathes me in, it becomes me

I’m alone, scared and bound by the souls that will never leave...

This is to a man who moves mountains and lives on the sea

Where the solitude sets his mind free

Adventure lives in his soul

A force no one can control

As greatness craves his existence

He humbles its’ presence

To a man who fools the eye and affects the mind

To that man I say

Greatness will find you

Purpose breathes you

And in gentle uncertainty the world will see you

And be amazed

The house was empty

Like space itself had taken over

Only leaving the hollow shell of something that once was great

As your shadow takes up space

The whispers of moments recognize your soul

As their memories echo in your mind trying to keep you here

In this place you’ve outgrown

The place I met you and now the fear comes alive

Now I wonder will you leave me here

In this room overwhelmed with memories

Memories which breathes in my skin

Weaving my soul into these empty walls

I need life to make sense even if just for a minute

I need to know that I’m not going to die alone

I need to know if everything is going to be ok

I’m in a dark place

Usually the darkness calms me but today

Today for the first time I’m scared

So scared I can hardly breathe

Today I wish death would find me

Today I’m in a dark place

Were walls whisper and the echoes of torture feeds my fear

Today I’m alone in this dark place

Today I’m scared